Gaia Gets Old

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A New Beginning

Wow. What a week. On Tuesday night we stood at the dawn of a new age, and elected a black man with the unlikely name of Barack Obama to be the next President of the United States. I was at a party in Kensington with Julie when the announcement was made - right at 8 when the polls closed in the western states. What a magic evening, and what joy the next day, sharing the pride with my students - for the first time we are all proud to be American.

At the same time, thinking about Obama and the fact that he's a year younger than me really makes me shudder at the state of my own life. I had it bad as a kid, but not that much worse than did he. And here I sit, in debt, with bad credit, few friends, getting old. I want to turn this around, but don't know how, and feel too isolated to know who to ask. I did start therapy again this week, and perhaps that, along with meditating more, will bring me some relief and clarity.

I need to keep my focus on the bigger picture. I am 48 years old. My goal is to be in the best shape of my life, physically, financially, spiritually when I hit 50. I need to keep that in mind. All of my petty daily desires geared at filling the current emtiness need to be deferred toward that goal...

What can I do each day to work towards this?
1. Meditate
2. Keep track of what I spend and eliminate the needless spending
3. Exercise - I am going to start going to crossfit next week.
4. Food - eliminate sugar and alcohol - I do pretty well otherwise. I weigh about 147 right now - same as 10 years ago
5. Supplements - I need some work here
6. Good skin care regime
7. Follow through with therapy and take direction

I'm sure I'll think of more.....